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wanted to shout and sing of the miraculous new life and sense and form,
of the joyous beauty and the whole mad ecstasy of loveliness. I knew and
understood all there is to know and understand. I was immortal, wise beyond
wisdom and capable of love of all loves. Every atom of my body and soul
had seen and felt God. The world was warmth and goodness. There was no
time, no place, no me. There was only cosmic harmony. It was all there
in the white light. With every fiber of my being I knew it was so." One idea should be clarified. This person asked if they were dead and said that there was "no me". Many people will say that they were gone or didn't exist anymore, but at the same time, will say that if someone asked them a question, they could hear it and answer it, which means that they still existed and were not at all dead. What they really mean is that with LSD, they are so far beyond anything that they have ever known, imagined or dreamed of that it's as if they are dead or don't exist anymore. What is dead and nonexistent is the ego and all the social conditioning, not the person and not life. The person is infinitely more alive than ever because the ego is finally, blessedly out of the way. In Robert Anton Wilson's book, Sex and Drugs, a man from the mid 1800's, as a result of a hashish experience (it must have been great hash) is quoted on pages 114-116 as saying: "My eyelashes elongated indefinitely, unrolling themselves like threads of gold on ivory spindles which spun of their own accord with dazzling rapidity. Around me poured streams of gems of every color, in ever changing patterns like the play within a kaleidoscope. My comrades appeared to me disfigured, part men, part plants. So strange did they seem that I writhed with laughter and overcome by the absurdity of the spectacle, flung my cushions in the air." "My hearing became prodigiously acute. I actually listened to the sound of the colors. From their blues, greens and yellows there reached me sound waves of perfect distinctness. A glass inverted, the creak of an armchair, a word pronounced with a deep voice vibrated and rumbled about me like the reverberations of thunder. My own voice seemed so loud that I dared not speak for fear of shattering the walls with its bomb-like explosion. More than 500 clocks seemed to announce the time in voices. Each object touched gave off a note." "Never has greater beauty immersed me in its flood. I was so lost in its waves, so separated from myself, so disembarrassed of my ego, that odious appendage that accompanies us everywhere, that for the first time I understood the nature of existence of elementals of angels and spirits separated from the body. I hung like a sponge in the midst of a warm sea; at each moment waves of happiness traversed me, entering and emerging by my pores." "Sounds, lights, perfumes reached me through tendrils fine as hairs in which I heard magnetic currents vibrating. By my calculation, the state lasted about 300 years, for the sensations which followed one another were so numerous and pressing that any real appreciation of time was impossible. The rapture passed...I saw that it had lasted just a quarter of an hour." I said it before and I'll say it again: LSD is an electrifying, fascinating, beautiful, sparkling, dazzling, radiant, glowing, glorious, awesome, divine, heavenly, joyous, sensuous, euphoric, ecstatic, majestic, magical, magnificent, miraculous, sensational, spectacular, exciting, intense, dramatic, overwhelming awakening of experience. |